I can't really remember where I've left off in this journal. I think partly it's because I can't remember the last time I wrote a genuine paragraph in English, haha! Explanation will ensue.
First, I've neglected my journal yet again. I should avoid this.
It's not only this journal I've neglected though. I seem to have this habit of putting the same things off consistently. It's this part of my personality that I've recently discovered and I really don't know how to fix it. Shall dive into that soon.
Current life update?
Well, it's been a very hot summer at my school, The Ateneo. I know this because I've been a very active visitor of this place for the past month and a half. Yes, I have summer classes.
I'm taking Psychology, Filipino and Japanese. Psych doesn't really allow me to write my own paragraphs since it being a science course only requires me to memorize terms. Mostly it's been conversational English, Filipino and Japanese that fills my day. Yeah, I'm already not good at Filipino and I'm taking Japanese hahaha. Oh and get this, I have to deliver a speech in straight Filipino this Wednesday. If you knew me well, you'd know that I might not survive this week. I will die, fosure. :((((((((
ANYWAY, to lighten things up, or maybe just to change the topic, I'll go into the personality thing.
I may not be a psych major, but it's just something I've noticed. I'm... an extreme girl. It just seems like I have this switch in my head that has the capability to go all-out in things or just... average.
Examples!
- When I get into something, like a project, new hobby or topic, I really get into it. I was really into my photography and movie making. Also series/movie watching. Also tennis. Also chess. Also online gaming. This week, I'm featuring the fantastic area of cooking and body fitness/weight loss! I've done the research and all, gym, diet, etc.
- When I decide to prioritize something over the other, for a period of time, I will repeat these actions. Like when I was really into my photoblog account, but now it's been stale for... more than a month, I think. Same goes for this blog too.
Everyday pretty much constitutes of me going to school, hanging out with my blockmates, fulfilling Sanggu/org duties, or hanging out with Ants (<3). I don't know what happened to my summer plans, I usually have a long list to fulfill.
Time seems to be getting more and more precious as the days pass. It's... scary really. I don't know where it goes. I didn't really realize how school really sets me back from all the things I really want to do.
I still haven't written my stories. I still haven't started filming. I still haven't seriously studied video-editing and photography. I still haven't done a lot of things, and I'm almost 19. The older I'm getting, the less time I have. Not as in, my lifespan time, but more of how college will continuously demand more time from me, so I should be making use of it now. I should. But I'm not.
I don't know.
I just feel like my life should be more than this.
Or maybe it's just that I never imagined my life to be like this when I was younger.
But y'know, I often simply just slip back into the old habit of not caring and going with the flow.
As for my love life, well, that's for another post. Hahaha. :> :D ;)
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